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| Wednesday, August 29, 2007 | |
| 不值得哭泣 | |
 对对对.. I know all the onion pictures are always sad pictures nowadays.. but today I am really quite angry.. but well I shall talk about that later. I am extremely tired today. Woke up like 7.45am to rush to meet my friend... told him I can only reach like 9.30am instead of 9.15am and his reply to me was "Sigh.. ok..".. that got me alittle worked up this morning... I'm tired.. and I slept like 2am last night.. and by replying that as an SMS to me is only making me feel bad.. and nothing else. I cant help it but to almost tell him not to wait for me and proceed to office himself first.. but then again.. i managed to reach there in time ba....Today I was really very sleepy and tired. I drank like 1 cup of coffee gao gao (added extra coffee powder)... and it only managed to keep me awake for like 15 minutes... and I didnt survive the trip home either.. I almost dozed off on the bus and missed my stop... and by the time I'm home.. all I wanted to do was to take a hot bath and hit right onto my bed.. but yeah before that I was of course MSNing on the phone... and stupid Dan Dan message me to say HI and BYE!... sibeh er xin... and someone said about some people pigging out.... duno whether you're talking about me or not but don't forget you're also a piece of pork. Anyway I would like to gradually stop this association of Pork / Pig with me... cos its getting too common.. everyone is like calling themselves pig.. and its no longer something special to me anymore... u go one blog u see the word pig.. u go to another u see the word pig again. Onion is better and cuter.... hmm but Onion + Pig.. =X. Oh by the way, when i woke up.. i went for a run lah and thats why now i am blogging cos feeling super active now... Before I start my official rumbling of something... today the big shot who didnt turn up bought something nice for us. Ok I can't really say its nice lah.. but it looks presentable... i heard from my admin people.. (after i went in to gossip with them) that each of them costs about $3... and have to make reservations online.. wah lao this kinda thing only rich people can afford... and somemore the trend now is to eat donuts isnt it... not cupcakes ma... but Ok here's the kawaii picture of the cup cakes that costs $3...  I have to admit they look kawaii... i tasted the one with the pinky cream on top plus abit of the one in the middle from my friend :P  The strawlabelly one.. looks tempting isnt it... think the one who took this can help them do up an online catalogue liao...  Yeah so looks nice? It will be nice if someone can be kind enough to surprise me with such stuffs in office.. i don't mind you know.... it will be like FWAH! =D Ok.. now here's what I am going to rumble about today... I hope friends.. especially my audi friends who read this don't be angry or get offended with what I am going to say.. i meant well.. seriously... Today I spoke to P6 girl.. P6 Girl is my Jie in audi.. and I'm like P5 Boi to her.. I can say its another poor girl who just had her heart broken. Seriously stupidity in us kills most of the time. I wonder when will the clever us wake up to know that this is all just a dump and stupid idea... and its all just a game.. a game of love.... and its really something not worth it... That guy got married in audi with another girl from his school when P6 girl has been his dear all along for quite some time... and at the same time she's telling me she is going to 忍 cos that girl is just a friend of his. HOW DUMB CAN WE ALL GET? Its obviously that he's two timing you.. will two friends just get married for the sake of getting married and yet you're like becoming the third party of their "happily ever after" relationship? Its all just something that is kinda fictatious and an illusion to me.. so what that you have been talking to your dear for 3 months, 10 months, 1 year or 2 years.. (i doubt it will last that long)... do you really think.. that you know this person truly inside out in real life? I been through this twice.. and seriously the first time lasted like 7 months and it really hurts so bad that I duno what I had become.. but somethings happened after that changed my life (but thats another story some other day).. but the stupid me got cheated again the second time.. when I wasnt the one who took the initiative.. and I wasnt the one who started it all and yet I was the one to be fooled by the game of love... And what did I get in return? I got cheated of my feelings again.. but luckily...i didnt put much into it thus I am able to walk out of it like a free man... though it still hurts everytime i think about it.. hurt because i feel stupid.. I just cant believe that she can believe him again and again. A leopard will never change its spot.. and why must we all make ourselves suffer for something so not possible to happen. Do you really think you will meet up one fine day? Maybe I am been skeptical about it but definitely we will have a certain set of expectations built up on that person... and what if upon meeting up... he/she fails to meet your expectations that you had of him / her. Is it considered game over? And then we get overselves hurt.. and goes into some grieving period just because some lover we know in game just disappointed us? I guess there are better things for us to grief and I admit I was stupid enough to be sad about those things that happened in the past. One reason why I didn't want to play audi anymore is because of this.. I think its a good break for myself as well.. as I can find time to concentrate on other things instead of getting myself into some stupid and dumb problems... when that kind of time can be spent into doing something much more constructive. When P6 girl told me about it.. all I wanted to do was to scold her.. to bring her back to her senses.. afterall she's 12.. and she's having her PSLE.. its not worth getting yourself hurt over someone.. who you don't really even know in real life and you have already considered him / her a life-long partner. Isn't it better if we are all just gamers and friends? At least friends dont hurt each other.. and if anything happens.. we can still be friends.. but is there really a friendship after love? Most prob it will be enemies.. and even if there is.. its just a Hi and Bye thing isnt it... Its afterall just a game of love.. don't take it too seriously... else.. the one to suffer is you yourself and not the one hurting you. Sigh I hope my friends and P6 girl reading this won't be angry with what I had said.. I meant to be well and I seriously care about my friends and really hope everyone to be happy. We can be happy during the time we are involved in the game of love.. but what really happens after that? Are we able to walk out of it without hurting ourselves? Sorry If i had offended anyone.. I got to go and do my work already. I still have a meeting at 9.15am tomorrow at 14th floor.. tmd i hate that floor.. and I have my school orientation tomorrow as well.. 开学了! Good night world.. and peace.. =) |
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