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| Friday, December 7, 2007 | |
| Long Time No Post | |
| It has been a long time since I last posted an entry.. last log on to MSN... last chatted with those people I miss like sis... I'm still here.. I'm still around... but I'm just to busy to really blog and msn. Its been really quite a while I must say. Its end of the year and no I am not busy celebrating and preparing for christmas. I am actually in my midsts of studing for my examinations. Exams is like next week and I am halfway through my revision. I'm hoping to do well and thus shut down my laptop and refrain from using the net unless to check email of course. I have been on leave for two weeks already. I know I sibeh kiasu but I have to due to the nature of my work. If i dont go for leave early, i wun have the time last week to actually work on 3 assignments at the same time. Luckily I have enough leave and offs to clear plus some extras from my goody boss. I have also been running but recently I think I'd injured my knees. Unable to run for too long. The max I went was 10km though my record was about 18km. The pain is there on and off and I am thinking of seeing a doctor soon... because I still want to achieve my goal of 42km. I hope everyone is fine.. every gal and guy out there who are still so devoted in reading my lovely blog. =). Thanks for the many support. I promise an upgrade + and update very soon once my examinations are over. To me, my studies are now my priorities and so I hope everyone can understand. To Qian Sis, I'm not sure if you are still reading my blog but its been some time since we had a good chat... will tok or sms u soon once I am done with my exams. To Denz, please take care and have fun with your ipork nano. To akkii and shaz and keni.. I will play audi soon.. I HOPE. Take care gals =) Time to hit the books again. Luv |
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| Saturday, October 27, 2007 | |
| WORK RUN ASSIGNMENTS! | |
| Its been a while since I last post... yes I'm busy.. I'm tired.. having like only 2 hours of sleep daily.. I wonder how long more I can really tahan. Seems like everyone is missing.. maybe everyone is busy moving on with their own lives.. and so am I. Past few days isn't that good either.. have to face 200s of people.. and giving them presentation of the project that will be launched next week.. tired out cos the presentation is splitted up into groups of 12 - 15... and imagine how many times I have to repeat myself on the same thing for the past few days. Life with *D* isnt that good too.. *D*'s been busy.. and today *D*'s out.. with the excuse of going home to sleep for the weekend.. but I know that's not the truth.. you're actually with that Person.. but what can I do about it? I can only keep it inside me... trying not to think about it and to be cool with it... but at times I just cant take it and have to let it all out when I'm by myself. Work relationship seems better after my boss had a talk with that colleague.. his attitude towards me seems to be better as well.. but sigh.. School Work seems bad...tomorrow I have an assignment due.. and yet I have been busy with work the past few days and practically has no time to work on it..Its just gonna go on a vicious cycle.. finish assignment.. do work project.. finish work project do assignment.. and then exams... I just came back from a run.. though tired.. back aching and stuffs.. today I manage to clock at least 5km.. Last week's run was 2 x 10Kms and I'm quite proud of myself for that achievement.. but think cos of the amount of work and etc.. I couldnt run as long as I want to for today... Anyway.. Qian Qian sis.. take care please. I have not heard from you for quite some time. I hope you're doing fine. I'm now looking for a phone with a QWERTY keyboard.. my N80 seems abit bulky and I really wanna change.. so anyone got any good recommendations? And Den Den.. How have you been? Are you dead? or playing hide and seek again? Take care everyone! |
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| Saturday, October 20, 2007 | |
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| I have not been updating my blog for the past few days cos I dont have the time. I barely have enough sleep everyday.. having only like 2 - 3 hours of sleep before waking up to rush for meetings or to go to office. Tuesday was spent working on assignments and discussion with my classmates till like 5am outside. Wednesday was a schooling day and a project rushing day. Thursday and Today was extremely bad. To tell you all the truth, I have been crying for the past two days in office. I'm in the state of breaking down... or rather.. I'd already broke down... and I cant take it anymore. I'm tired and exhausted... and I have to deal with problems with *D*. As though school and work and *D* is not enough, one of my guys working under my project has been giving me attitude problem. Not happy with the changes that i told him to do.. and because of his work.. i got calls and scolding from my clients. The words that came from my clients wasnt good... and that was why I cant take it animore but to go to the toilet to cry. I have been very strong, trying to check through his work.. review his work.. pick up calls from clients as if nothing has happened till i cant take it animore and had to excuse myself to cry in the toilet. As if that's not enough, my guy spoke so loud at one of the corridor complaining to his friends about me that made me hit a double blow. If I didnt do my job and duty properly I deserved to be slapped.. but I think i had done more than I should... and even to doing your work for you when I am your manager... and so I expect some respect from you.. but it seems that he is just showing me the attitude.. banging things and even putting smething nasty on his MSN personal msg to me. That's not very nice at all. I have been nice and patience.. and I have always taken good care of you although this is the first time you're working on a project with me though we know each other for 2 yrs plus... and to make things worst.. today is my assignment submission and because of his work.. i cant finish my assignment on time.. and had to submit it late. I went into another depression and cried again. Why do I deserve all that? I went to school then after a meeting with the client (firing squad) and to discover that I'd lost my file of lecture notes and project documents. My life is going downhill and I'm like in the lowest and worst mood that I can be for this year. If all that is not enough... *D* is not even home and didnt bother to SMS me to inform me about whereabouts. Its sad ... its really sad and how I wish I can go somewhere now to just jump down and end all my frustrations. I'm tired and I should probably sleep. Nites. |
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| Sunday, October 14, 2007 | |
| "Errr Hi??" =X | |
| Saturday Saturday Saturday.. its a weekend!! YEAH! AND YEaH!!! I SPENT MY SATURDAY DOING WORK THE WHOLE DAY! YEAH!!! and now after finish writing this entry, I'm gonna be like doing my assignment that is due next week le... Yeah didnt do much of other stuffs today except my work. Login to Audi for a while though using my PC... saw Charkoal and Den so said hi to both of them.. but Charkoal gave me this stupid reply that just made me so WTF... I said.. "HELLO!!!!!!" and he replied.. "errr..... Hi?" WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN? I quit audi le doesnt mean u forget me liao ma =( anyway that's small matter la.... then stupid den also.. said ... "WAH" wah what wah.. only come in to say hi la... Yup.. then the rest.. nothing much liao... was practically doing work.. then took a nap.. woke up then do more work.. then went for a 5km run today.. came back.. bath and then now gonna start doing assignments. Sigh I hope I have more time for other things soon.... anyway thats all ba. Take care people and good nite! |
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| posted by terzy @ 1:10 AM |
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| Saturday, October 13, 2007 | |
| Selemat Hari Raya? | |
| This is gonna be a short post. I hope I won't write too long again. Yes.. I know .. same old thing for me to say.. but I'm tired and exhausted... as usual. Didn't go to office today so was sleeping till like 10am.. I know its late but taking into consideration the fact that I didn't sleep at all for the past two days... I think I deserved some proper rest. Went out with *D* for lunch.. ate Dim Sum and Porridge and bought some standard groceries like eggs and milk and juice before taking a cab home. Was pretty tired and didn't really wanna go out but I thought its a good opportunity to go out with *D* (although my mood and face was kinda black n moody.. i just cant help it???) Went home to do some work.. saw some irritating emails from my boss that made me 发火.. I was so angry that I had an immediate headache... and so I went for a nap and by the time I woke up.. its already 5.18pm and I'm late for school... Reached school about 7pm.... and then attended the lectures. I'm not sure why but sometimes my class mates are quite entertaining and they sort of cheered me up. They msned me too when i was online and crapped quite alot of lame jokes to make me cheery.. (cos they know i very stress with work and assignment) so yeah I'm quite grateful for that. Oh yesterday I went out for a dinner with a friend cum client. We became very good friends after doing her project.. and so yeah we kept in touch since. Went to Sushi Tei for makan and yeah its quite good and nice. I treated her for a meal la cos its been quite some time since i met her... then we went for abit of shopping and then going home... and then i slept... till 10am as mentioned. I guess that's about all.. I have some documentation stuffs to do for work and I really want to complete it soon. Its been some time since I last spoke to Qian Qian Sis... I kinda miss her? We're like almost chatting everyday last time but nowadays I login to MSN and I dont really see her online... although we casually still SMS each other a little.. but yeah... SIS I REALLY MISS U!.. There's also denz... kinda miss that irritating side of you. Please come and irritate me soon ok.... and to eLin sis... I'm sorry for what happened to you... I wished I could have done something for you... do take care and be strong. Thanks for reading my blog.. I'm not sure why I'm so emo nowadays but I guessed I'm going through alot of stress.. and lastly to ting ting... I will try to be strong de... I will be chatting with you soon ok for my next consultation.. you take care too. Ok... thats really about all. Not sure who else is reading.. but thanks for reading whether you really bother or not.. but thanks! Good night world and good nite people. Selemat Hari Raya! |
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| Wednesday, October 10, 2007 | |
| feels like crying | |
| I really feel like crying now... there's this truckload of work to be done.. and each day it goes on and on. My boss talks about not giving me so much work to do yet he still sends them to me and expect me to delegate it out to the rest when... everyone is so preoccupied with other work on hand as well. If I don't get it done on time it becomes my bad.. if I complain that there's alot of work to be done he say why I never ask others to do it... I haven had the time to start my assignments yet.. yet I have to prepare for 1001 things for my project launch. I'm going crazy.. seriously crazy and upset. The least I had expected from *D* was to understand and maybe be nice to me... but today *D* just flared up with me for looking.. @ *D*.. "why that FACE??? I AM JUST CHATTING I AM VERY TIRED TODAY.." Omg.. what have i done wrong? I was just looking and its not even about you chatting with your "OTHER HALF" at all... I'm just feeling stressed.. needed some comfort... and looking around.. is it wrong.. I already having a hard time trying to balance up everything... and I seriously don't need that kinda attitude from you.. the hot and cold.. msg me when you feel like it.. I duno.. I'm kinda weeping now.. everything is just so fucked up.. seriously fucked up..... |
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| Tuesday, October 9, 2007 | |
| Tiring... SO SO TiRING! | |
| Today's post gonna be a short one.. i try... I woke up like 6am this morning to do some work that i was supposed to finish last night.. but I was just too tired and have to sleep. Went to work after finishing those work and reached office about 11... and then I was flooded with more work.. and I had to ask myself.. when will this end? I'm feeling extremely stress now.. i have 3 assignments due in the upcoming two weeks and a few project launches that are happening concurrently. I'm not sure how I'm gonna survive that. I'm getting tired as each day goes by.. bodyaches.. falling asleep on the train and bus... sigh.. and trying hard to communicate with *D*. Sometimes i msn *D* or sms *D*.. *D* didn't response... sometimes only the normal stuffs like "eat what?".. "do what.." "want me buy dinner??" and stuffs... sigh. I'm also trying to run.. my only source of destressing.. although it makes me more tired.. but when i try.. i wun think so much.. its like.. running away from all my problems.. and yup.. i just came back from running today. feeling sleepy now but there's like 101 to-dos for me to look into by tomorrow.. so yeah. i'm gonna go do my work. Thanks SIS for your SMS today.. sorry i couldnt reply back cos my hp no batt.. but thanks! i miss u! =) |
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