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| Saturday, October 20, 2007 | |
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| I have not been updating my blog for the past few days cos I dont have the time. I barely have enough sleep everyday.. having only like 2 - 3 hours of sleep before waking up to rush for meetings or to go to office. Tuesday was spent working on assignments and discussion with my classmates till like 5am outside. Wednesday was a schooling day and a project rushing day. Thursday and Today was extremely bad. To tell you all the truth, I have been crying for the past two days in office. I'm in the state of breaking down... or rather.. I'd already broke down... and I cant take it anymore. I'm tired and exhausted... and I have to deal with problems with *D*. As though school and work and *D* is not enough, one of my guys working under my project has been giving me attitude problem. Not happy with the changes that i told him to do.. and because of his work.. i got calls and scolding from my clients. The words that came from my clients wasnt good... and that was why I cant take it animore but to go to the toilet to cry. I have been very strong, trying to check through his work.. review his work.. pick up calls from clients as if nothing has happened till i cant take it animore and had to excuse myself to cry in the toilet. As if that's not enough, my guy spoke so loud at one of the corridor complaining to his friends about me that made me hit a double blow. If I didnt do my job and duty properly I deserved to be slapped.. but I think i had done more than I should... and even to doing your work for you when I am your manager... and so I expect some respect from you.. but it seems that he is just showing me the attitude.. banging things and even putting smething nasty on his MSN personal msg to me. That's not very nice at all. I have been nice and patience.. and I have always taken good care of you although this is the first time you're working on a project with me though we know each other for 2 yrs plus... and to make things worst.. today is my assignment submission and because of his work.. i cant finish my assignment on time.. and had to submit it late. I went into another depression and cried again. Why do I deserve all that? I went to school then after a meeting with the client (firing squad) and to discover that I'd lost my file of lecture notes and project documents. My life is going downhill and I'm like in the lowest and worst mood that I can be for this year. If all that is not enough... *D* is not even home and didnt bother to SMS me to inform me about whereabouts. Its sad ... its really sad and how I wish I can go somewhere now to just jump down and end all my frustrations. I'm tired and I should probably sleep. Nites. |
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