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| Wednesday, September 19, 2007 | |
| 呼吸的空间 | |
| Its been some time and many of my friends (both gamers and non gamers) has been asking me why I'd shut down my blog. Well.. I didn't but I just didn't have the mood to blog anymore... but anyway I'm back to blogging and my blog is now porkie-is-dead.blogspot.com. Life has never been good these days... all the work and assignments and projects just seems to be pouring in.. and I can't seems to complete them nor put my 101% focus on them. I tried but I failed. Personal Relationships also seems to be failing these days.... not only just the problems that I am having with *D*.. I think alot of you just didn't sense that I am upset too because I seems to be losing all of you... be it my gaming friends or my real life friends. The gap and distance between us seems to be getting wider and wider as each days passed by. We all don't really seems to talk so much anymore about anything and everything... and I seems to lost that cheery soul inside me.. Its just so dark nowadays.. everyday I am just sleeping, working, studying, traveling and running.... Sometimes I'm just hoping to have someone to talk to.. but there seems to be none except Sera Jie and Qian Qian sis who will ocassionally drop me SMSes and MSNes to ask me how I am doing... then there are those that I am hoping to talk to but yet they don't really have the time to bother about me.. I guess I'm already losing it.. and I seriously need to go one corner and hide for some time.. maybe I shouldn't have stepped out in the first place. I get into stupid and clumsy acts as well these days... injuring my eyes while sleeping and I wonder how I can actually poke my own eyes.... then there was the of hitting of my hands against a door and getting a cut from it.. and then flaring up in office because I think I can no longer take the attitude from the guys.... (and those work stuffs that got me so frustrated.. but thats another different story all together) But then.. for a consolation.. I was given the chance to attend to BBQs last week. One organised by my disgusting superior... and the other one was organised by me... The first one got me damn upset and pissed (which explains the previous post)... Its a BBQ between two companies under the same bosses.. we dont like X Company's de staff and vice versa.. but they did a terrible and disgusting act that just pisses me off.. anyway i won't talk about it here... The second BBQ was organised by me (as usual...) lots of food and etc and I had a fun night squeezing into a queensize bed with X number of guys... and then telling ghost stories that really made me freak out.. but I didnt really BBQ cos my eyes were red and everyone was trying to shoo me away from the pit... Following the BBQ... I went to IKEA with mum.. supposedly to go with *D* but *D* has to go to work.. so ended up me and mum at IKEA Tampines. Went there to collect my membership rewards vouchers and to buy new bed sheet covers.. document holders and etc.. Monday was a puke blood day and its the same for Tuesday after going through the work with my guys. Had planned to actually do my assignments today but ended up doing my guy's work cos they didn't really do one that is up to my expectations and I have to show my clients on Thursday during a review session. I went out for a while though to get my try again at getting insurance policies (because the last few rounds.. were all rejected from all the insurance companies and I am so sick of trying already... but no choice because my doctor advise me to get myself covered before she carry out more tests...) so I hope this time it gets through... I guess that's all for today and maybe tomorrow.. I don't really know what else I wanna talk about because..... *Nites* |
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| posted by terzy @ 3:51 AM | 
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